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breaking open.

why do you think you’re broken? because bad things happened or because you have everything all mixed up, backwards and wrong inside? “both,” you say? ok. forget about the first one; it doesn’t matter. the second one is meant; we are supposed to be broken inside.

how else would we grow? everything that grows in nature requires a breaking open. even at home, in your kitchen, you have to break a few eggs to get breakfast. we were not meant to pass through this life miraculously unscathed. the miracle is life after death. we were not meant to come all this way just to be the same person going out as we were coming in.

and guess what, no one signs up for a bad time. even if you did, you could always change your mind. a feeling is just an outfit, a try-on. the only way to experience a feeling is to feel it. that doesn’t mean it’s yours, it doesn’t mean you have to take the outfit home with you to wear every day, and it doesn’t mean it looks good on you. of course, you’ll have to let the feeling move through you before it’s out. you’ll be glad to remember this is your party; you can cry all you need to.

it’s also your movie; you can stage the greatest comeback of your life. if anyone had the ultimate backing to do so, it would be you.