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a time to heal.

we know it’s time to heal when the lies become too painful to carry but the truth is still too hard to believe. healing is difficult because we will be called to evolve our hearts and explore our shadows, but only at a pace that our nervous systems will allow. the methodology is love, the medicine is light, and healing is not fast.

sunlight does not commit visual assault. unlike a light switch, the sun brightens the sky gradually and then gently retreats so that we may use dreamtime to integrate daytime. our shadows just want to be seen; they are tired of hiding. our shadows want the light. our feelings just want to be felt; they are tired of being denied and pushed down. they may cause pain but they aren’t meant to hurt us. rather, they are asking to be felt and released. feelings require safety to be expressed, so we may find ourselves pushing them down during battle and then numbing them away as they are triggered after the fact. the worst ones are just trying to leave the emotional body. many of them don’t even belong to us. they’re just echoes from the past, stowaways that must be brought out from hiding.

so what are the truths and what are the lies? the truths sound like this: i am worthy of my desires. i am beautiful. i am whole. the lies sound like: i do not deserve what’s good. i am not enough. i have to shrink and hide to be safe. as we heal, the truths start to make more sense, negativity becomes more obvious, and both become easier to accept for what they are.