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true today.

when the past and future don’t feel great, remember what is true today.

i don’t know what’s next. no one does. experiencing life as it unfolds is extremely human and quite common. you won’t always understand what’s happening as it happens. and time does not assure that you will understand what’s passed. understanding arrives and evolves with consciousness. so that’s the part we work on. not the trying to know in advance.

i am a menace. this is the exact hardware and software of the moment. upgrades are available but this is today’s operating model and technology stack. you might have a look around and notice there’s someone who keeps doing all this and running the same loops and it’s almost like they can’t even stop. that’s right. you’re you and you’re not done. let it be ok.

i love me. even if it doesn’t feel good. even if it means going against desire and the facts and decades of habit. loving the self does not always feel the way you would want or expect. but you know it’s happening when you do it anyway, whatever that means for today. knowing you persist over time, and that sometimes, “not making it worse” can be enough, for now.

i love me. i am a menace. i don’t know what’s next. and that’s enough for today.