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palate cleanser.

some days, some phases in your life feel terrible because they’re meant to cleanse the palate. the trash is out; chaos has left you. it’s not fun anymore, even when you invite it back in. so you keep trying. even if you hate what you used to enjoy or used to distract. you can’t seem to get through anything even if the worst is over. it’s hard to believe the best is yet to come. and before it can arrive, they don’t need you hungry (that was part of the problem) but they do need you able to register what’s next.

so you fast. you abstain until your body stops fighting and can finally agree with the mind that nothing is missing. you resist the past so the future can land. your heart and soul know there’s more but both mind and body need to stop climbing and grasping and grabbing.

you get rid of what was hurting you. then the painkillers stop giving relief. you rebuild, allow space and then wait. it’s this waiting that will cleanse the palate. but not if you keep trying to solve what wants to be flat, still and empty.

the static was something. but sometimes you just have to find an empty frequency. hold the line. don’t move too fast. make sure everything is quiet and settled so you can hear the music just as soon as it begins flooding in.