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dear self.

to my future self:

you’ve come such a long way. and i am still rising to meet you. you’re about to open that door and walk into everything you ever wanted: into a life that holds the truth of your dreams, big and small, spoken and unspoken.

i wanted to remind you of how much you deserve this. you gave it your all and you gave it all up. it was hard, but not for the reasons either of us expected. we didn’t know how hard it would be to let go of everything that was false to who we came here to be. we didn’t know how hard it would be to either stop self-abandoning or to crawl our way back home, every single time. but we had to. or we wouldn’t have made it as far as we did. we wouldn’t be where you are now. and so we did it. we did this. you did this.

something i am learning even now, is that life doesn’t have to change for me to enjoy it. i do. i get to have days where i actually enjoy being me. it’s not every day. but one day it will be, regardless of what’s happening outside or inside. and that’s where you are now. thank you.

i’m excited for my miracle. and the miracle is this: the miracle is you and the miracle is me. remember to stay in your body. and remember that you are so loved.