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when no one is looking.

how will we know if we can be trusted with what we want most, whether it’s love, abundance, health and wealth, belonging or validation? these are all forms of certainty; the many faces of wholeness. and before this fulfillment manifests, we will be shown what we do, what we’re like and how we act when we don’t have it. when things are not going how we want. when we are made to wait. when we are given a glimpse or a taste before it’s quickly snatched away. when we keep getting what we need instead of what we want. when doing “what’s right” seems to be getting us nowhere.

when we are visited by doubt, discomfort or a lack of clarity, how do we treat people? how do we treat ourselves? when no one is looking, do we expand or contract? do we collapse or hold ourselves firm? do we love ourselves a little bit more or just a little bit less? do we find ourselves with more faith, compassion and patience? or is it less? do we settle for what we can get? or do we stay faithful? here’s the thing: if you think not having the thing is breaking you, then having it certainly will. and that’s why it’s not here yet. it comes when both you and the gift are safe to be received.

it is our job to turn this prison of a planet into heaven on earth, to live a limitless life within this three-dimensional, time-bound existence. so we need to stop commodifying our pleasure. we need to stop taking what we can get and stop settling for those little hits of relief. the soul and the spirit need not exist in the same holding cell as the body. the key to our happiness, to our freedom, is not the thing we think we want that’s missing or delayed; it’s us.