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along the way.

one does not embark on a spiritual journey. we are on a spiritual journey from the start. there just comes a point for the few of us that we awaken to the fact and must begin to move with intention. the awakening is not always kind, but it’s not meant to be. it’s meant to be effective. and it’s meant as a last resort that burns the bridge. you already tried all the ways; if numbing, running and distracting worked, they would have by now. we were always in pieces. but what held us together has somehow collapsed or disappeared. and now the only way out is through. there’s not supposed to be a way to go back to sleep. our wakefulness is a gift.

we learn that the five senses are just to keep us from bumping into things on planet earth. true sight is through the third eye. we feel not through the skin, but through the heart. we are safe at our root and not behind our masks. the truth does not come in through the ears; it is revealed as we activate our voice to begin speaking it. we remember that our essence is not consumption –it is creation– and that the sacral is the portal. our inner sun is our strength and protection, even as our crown connects us to heaven.

we learn to ask questions: am i living from my pain or my power? am i acting as the cause or the effect? are these people, places and things feeding me or feeding off me? is this relationship an asset or liability? if i hate the fruit will i be brave enough to keep digging for the root? each of us has a light within that is meant to guide us through; the journey is to trust it.