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showing up.

why should you keep showing up? why should you keep showing up to be unseen and unheard and unmet and asked to give more and receive less?

because this is exactly what God wanted to experience through you. because this is your offering; all of it: your greatest joys and deepest sorrows. because if you can’t see what’s good, then you get to be what’s good. every time the world refuses to show up for you, that’s when you give God a chance to show up for you.

think about it: who shows up for God? isn’t everyone always sharing less and asking for more? and what does God do? God keeps showing up. this is how God gets to live through you and how you get to be like God. after all, what is devotion? and when showing up becomes too difficult, we reframe: we alternate showing up with showing up as.

what if this just rips the same wound open, over and over? should we keep showing up for that? no. we keep showing up to be blessed and reminded by the fact that we bleed because we are still human and alive. that there’s warmth to be had in this world, even if it’s just in you; even if it’s just in showing up for yourself. until you finally want to. until you don’t have to. allow yourself to be surprised by what shows up.