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why wait?

we only ever let ourselves down in moments of erasure and self-abandonment. it is very difficult to keep a promise after you have already left your body. your addictions serve you while in survival mode; you won’t need them when you’re safe. but it’s hard to release what brings you temporary comfort and helps you waste time, if that’s all you’re trying to release. change what’s calling them in and they’ll gladly follow the rest of the circus out of your life.

if sitting with yourself, in your heart, in your soul, in your mind, in your vessel, feels like the hardest thing you’ll ever do, you will have to do it eventually. sometimes you will have to live the chaos before you can let it go.

but why wait? be brave. be here now.

stop running. you cannot depend on other people, places or things; you can’t always trust yourself. how many times have you let yourself down? it’s ok. that’s how it is to be a human. that’s how we distinguish ourselves from God. you can depend on God and trust in the divine, but learning your lessons is up to you. if we had only an hour left, or all the time in the world, why wait? learn your lessons so you can enjoy your life.

when you set yourself free, it sets everyone else free. where do you think the battle lives? it lives in the heart, in the soul of every soldier. the war ends when we stop carrying it. we must allow ourselves to be emptied of the war within to dissolve the war without.