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stop taking the bait.

are you a fish? then why do you keep taking the bait? why do you keep loving on other people’s chaos? does it make you feel alive? does chaos feel like it’s the raw material of life? giving you something to fix, conquer or carry? something important to say? is there a special satisfaction in being the obvious protector and provider and source of consistent integrity and stability in everyone else’s life?

you gotta stop. just stop. even if you love them. even if you love them the most; even if you’re the only one that loves them at all. because why would you give away what others cannot receive or reciprocate? if that’s the dynamic, then no one is gonna have the thing that’s good. if you’re bringing all the safe energy, who’s doing it for you? you’re not keeping you safe and they’re not keeping you safe.

chaos is unsafe. you cannot make it safe. and their chaos is not your problem. it can be your curriculum for as long as you like, but do not claim it as your own. chaos is not for you to master; it would not even be possible. in any given situation, chaos is the master; it’s not you.

the only thing chaos wants is to spread or be released. so whatever you do, you’re choosing one of the two. i recommend the one where you find yourself in the eye of the storm, where you recognize your identity as peace and not in punishing yourself as the forever custodian for other people’s mess.