giving it up.
giving up separation consciousness is the hardest thing you’ll ever do. why? because it’s hard to imagine that the pain is coming from inside and not outside; that the wound is mine and not theirs. it’s easier when we are separate and you are the one hurting me and that’s the reason i am in pain.
it’s hard not to imagine what i want as always outside me, just out of reach, and not inside me, where i am always able to find it. it’s easier when i don’t have what i want, if someone else is holding it hostage, because then it’s not my own fault. i’m not choosing to go without, so i get to feel rejected, and i don’t have to become my own solution. i feel lighter when someone or something else can be my center of gravity so i don’t have to be responsible for the whole thing.
we made it make more sense (even if it doesn’t) to treat the world like a vending machine, than to believe in an unlimited Source that is all around and within us. we don’t like “the entire ocean in a drop” because that level of sovereignty is too dangerous, luminous, magnetic and divinely radiant. how dare we, mere mortals, shine like the face of God?
much better that we devise a hierarchy among men, a dichotomous morality, a separation of self and other, because it circumvents the logical next step: remembering that the illusions of time, space and motion are mere constructs we collectively and temporarily adopted so as to forget there is no actual separation between man and God; that we are not some of us closer and further from the Light. that all of it, all of this, is just us and the Light.