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what you’ll find.

what you’ll find, after you’ve shed your last tear for all those broken connections, is that you’re not attached to anyone. no one holding you is no one holding you back. from the one who only wanted to belong, no matter the cost, is the monster who needs no one.

what you’ll find, after you’ve shed your last tear for the people and places that never saw you, is fidelity to your own vision. no one seeing you is no one stopping you. from the one who wanted only to please, always striving and learning to see herself through the eyes of others, is the monster who belongs only to herself and trusts only her own perception.

what you’ll find, after you’ve shed your last tear for all the people and places that could hardly tolerate you for existing in this field, is clarity. from the one who was confused and unsure and couldn’t understand the rules, even as she was determined to keep playing, is the monster who has made up her own mind that the game is over.

do you want to know how to make a person that always does the right thing? you punish them every time they do. and when you see them choosing what’s right, even if it brings them pain, that’s how you know they can be trusted. you learn yourself as you learn your prison. and then you are free.