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trouble with gratitude.

are you struggling with gratitude? that’s ok. don’t force it. gratitude isn’t meant to gaslight yourself or spiritually bypass the human condition. you have to know that when gratitude refuses to be summoned, there’s a hidden truth that must first come forward.

you cannot be grateful for a lie (sorry.) you cannot be grateful for pain until you understand the truth behind it. and yes, pain is always trying to tell you a truth: something hurts; you must find out why. you have to dig out the shrapnel, no matter how deep it’s lodged. and sometimes you have to go so deep to find it that when you do, you look at it like it’s gold. and guess what, it is. because you won’t heal, the truth won’t be revealed, until it’s out.

no one is glad to be hurt, disappointed, abandoned, excluded or rejected by the world; this all goes against the survival drive of your body consciousness. if it were rational or second-nature to “turn the other cheek” they wouldn’t be preaching it in holy books. no. the purpose, the assignment of embodiment is to experience and understand polarity. everyone is going to have to figure out how their soul consciousness gets along with the body consciousness, how to balance and unify the masculine and feminine energies within. entropy and harmony do a dance. so the world will hurt. it will register in your body consciousness. and then it’s up to you to understand the soul-level truth behind it. and what’s that now? it sounds like this:

those who forgo the beauty of your light and energy do so in your service – to help you understand your value and to teach you discernment. that is why you must bless those who reject you: because they agreed to go without for your benefit and to their own detriment. rejection is the lie that you are unworthy.

those who attack or abandon you do so in your service – to help you understand that you were always whole and to give you the opportunity to choose yourself. that is why you must bless those who harm you: because they agreed to awaken your strength, and the only person who benefits from that is you. wounds give the illusion that you can be broken, when your truth is your sovereignty.