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the main character.

you’re playing a role. this is your character. do you love her? do you know what she carries in her pockets? in her heart? do you know what she likes? what makes her laugh? smile? and cry? this is the person, the body the universe gave to you this time. it’s your job to explore her entire arc: does she go from villain to hero? strong to soft? does she rise, only to fall? what is her story?

you get to live it. you bring her to life through embodiment. you get to bring the audience into her world so they can see through her eyes, feel her heart beat and witness what is meant to unfold for her. she is not you, but you get to cry her tears, experience her joy and share in her losses.

life is a mystery and a longing that we all live together; the entire production is the divine playing a game called, “8 billion people.” why? because God is lonely. just as you are. God wants what you want: to experience what is available to us in contrast and density. God has everything; is everything. so the only way to live and die is to pretend that they’re different. the only way to give and receive is to split the one thing into two, if only for a moment in time. the only way to love is to forget, so we can allow ourselves to remember.

we agree to forget the divinity within and then we will seek it out in others before we allow ourselves to return home. and here’s the thing: it’s easy to get lost. for the set pieces and dramatic cues to feel more real than the truth. some scenes are incredibly long and difficult, while others are too beautiful to be so short. the assignment is to feel it all. for you, for your character, and for the audience. none of it exists without you. that’s what makes it all so beautiful.