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a different surrender.

we have to bless everyone and everything that in this moment, is helping us turn unknown weaknesses into known strengths. it’s the same as in the gym: exercise shows us that where we are weak today is where tomorrow we will be strong.

pain, delay, disappointment and lack of clarity are not meant to be numbed; they are clear internal signals that things need to change and that we’re ready to step forward, not shrink back. we are meant to transform our triggers into release and relief. trying situations are meant to reveal to us our power to heal what is ready to be healed.

so do you want to be right or do you want to be free? do you want to be right about what is hurting your feelings? or do you want to be free of it? just pretend that nothing and no one will change before you do. if we treat each day like a different surrender, giving everything over to God is just another way of affirming that we trust the divinity within, knowing it is the same divinity that flows all around us. the prayer sounds like this: i am here. i am me. i am in a body. it’s not for a long time. it will be over soon.

this is how we give up what we don’t want instead of defending or controlling. we remember that life is continually unfolding. if you’re having problems, don’t defend the problems. if something feels bad, do not ignore or deny your part in it. it’s a process. and the becoming is painful because it only happens through unbecoming. they don’t tell you that reaching for life and for the light actually feels like death. the old you must die so that the new you can live.