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what would it feel like?

what if this lifetime was meant to be the reward for all your previous lifetimes? what if this was meant to be the easy, beautiful and abundant one? where you would experience what they call “heaven on earth” and “true love forever,” despite all evidence and logic to the contrary?

there are ways you could begin to tell: the early part of your life would have been hard, years of living in the dark, to echo what you have fought over entire lifetimes, reminding you how strong and deserving you are. because what if this could be the lifetime your soul overcame it all, so as to finally fully enjoy everything available to us in this specific body consciousness: from a good cry to chocolate cake?

you would start by learning to navigate the balance between letting it happen and fighting for it. “letting it happen” is allowing what wants to flow in and out of your life to do so; allowing what comes up to be felt or seen—to be felt and seen. the “fighting for it” is refusing to give up, even when it’s hard, even when it hurts, is frustrating and offers zero clarity.

eventually, you learn to tell right from wrong in your body, not your mind. you learn to listen to your heart for the answer, and you begin to live as if that answer mattered. as if you were doing it for someone you loved. for someone who just wanted to experience what it would feel like, look like, and be like.