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i’m so sorry.

i don’t know how to show you love, so i will show you its opposite, that you may discover love’s endless source within.

i don’t know how to give you my best, so i will wish ill upon you, that you may claim your own path to happiness.

i don’t know how to appreciate or value you, so i will close my eyes to your radiance, that you may learn to see yourself.

i don’t know how to meet you at your depths, so i will allow someone else, that you may instantly recognize true love.

i don’t know how to hold you, so i will show you abandonment, that you may learn to stand with yourself.

i don’t know how to guide you, so i will allow you to trust yourself as your own wise person.

i don’t know how to celebrate you, so i will always try to bring you down, that you may learn to validate yourself.

i don’t know how to take care of you, so i will fail to nourish you, that you may learn to honor yourself.

i don’t know how to defend you, so i will side with the oppressor, that you may learn to protect yourself.

i don’t know how to accept you, so i will reject you, that you may learn unshakeable self-worth.

i can’t hear what you say, so i will give you isolation, that you may discover hidden reservoirs of strength in solitude.

i don’t know how to help you, so i will obstruct your path, that you may find your true purpose.

i didn’t know how to be who i needed to be for you, so i stepped aside so that you could become who you needed.