289

not indifferent.

the universe is not indifferent to you. what you have? you don’t have to have it; you have it because the universe desires it for you. this is where your gratitude can live.

in a reality that conspires in your favor, it would be easy enough to hold your blessings gently, with all the humility in the world. but what about the longing you grasp so tightly until it became malice, deprivation, betrayal? you hold your own desire until sweet turns to bitter and back to sweet again. sometimes that’s it. that’s the whole thing. sometimes, something blows in from the outside, after you’ve already reminded yourself that you’re still alive.

do you know how softly the sun rises? neither early nor late, at a different time each day. and when she’s done, she’s done. she retreats into a watery grave. we are reminded that her entire dance is a fight to the death. from first light to dusk to twilight, so many words to describe what came and went.