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leaky vessel.

one day soon, hopefully, you’ll realize that you don’t need to convince, chase, explain, rescue, disarm, perform, play small, act tough, be heard, entertain, be more, be less, be the same, be different, make them laugh, kill them with kindness, do less, do more, smile more, be right, be wrong, stay useful, die on that hill, bleed out, sink with the ship, or give because you gave. you don’t have to endure your own life just to be safe.

you can walk away. why? because now you can see: it didn't work, the prize never came, it came and didn't feel like you thought it would, it didn't last, or you had to be the one to come up with it yourself anyway.

"the worst" has already happened. and still, you survived. you're here. your worst fears came true, slowly, over time. and you can see plainly now: you didn’t die. the facts don't match the hypothesis. you expanded the data set and it shifted the distribution. your data drifted. the mean shifted. something else clicks into place. and just like that, the vessel stops leaking.