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this version of you.

take a moment to remember the version of you that prayed to be where you are now, to live as you do, and now you’re here. you are the miracle. a younger version prayed for you; she prayed for this. and now you exist.

even if things are still terrible, it’s what your soul called in to help you become the next version of yourself. a version you didn’t know how to pray for so your soul had to do it for you; a better life, a better you, is on its way. your soul leads you down the path and then you have to walk it to the other side, to what’s next.

life matches who you are. this version of you is not going to have a better life. when things get better, it will be enjoyed by the better version of you, not who you are now. so if you want things to change, you’ll have to change. and then you’ll have to watch the past fall away. it’s not easy and it’s not painless. life is its own tattoo. it will mark you. what’s inside will rise to the surface, for good and for bad.

do you feel like you’re dying? yes. let the old identity die so the new one can come online. are things falling apart? good. that means you chose yourself. keep doing that. what needs to fall apart, will. and if you don’t let it, if you stand in the way, you’ll be the one to fall apart. you’ll keep your current job and all your old relationships, with your friends and family and entire identity intact, and you’ll be what breaks. either way. break and stay. break into better.