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don’t quit.

your identity, who you are, is a curriculum that unfolds as your life. you can’t change your life, for better or worse, from the outside in. it happens from the inside out. you have to complete the curriculum. you have to exhaust the old identity. every main quest, every side quest, every gift, every understanding your soul signed up for? you have to live it out.

you don’t like how things are going? too bad. it’s not over until you’re done. until you break. the new car doesn’t drop out of the sky until the old one breaks down and you are completely empty. so live hard, live well and keep going. because if you don’t, what might have been meant as just a chapter, or the first half of your life, could easily turn into the whole thing.

you want things to change? it’s not affirmations. affirmations are prayers of gratitude for when cycles complete and old identities expire. they do not move you into the next versions of yourself. you do. your devotion, your surrender and your humility will keep you from you from getting stuck. even if it feels like you are rewriting and rereading the same passages.

rote memorization will become lived experience and then you won’t have to “quit.” that version of you will sunset. and the next version, the one that doesn’t do the same things or need the hard lessons that used up the old one, she will take the wheel. the road will feel different. that’s how life changes.