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depends on the day.

depending on the day, you will be shown what’s good. you’ll be ready for it and all of it will be for the good.

you’ll be shown your beauty, in case you forgot. or if you hadn’t ever seen it before. you’ll be shown the hidden pipes that still leak, when you’re ready to get under the house and fix them. you’ll find the opening to the rabbit hole beyond the rabbit hole when you’re ready to venture further. you’ll be shown all the ways you are still trying to beg, borrow and steal when you’re ready to become your own medicine. you’ll find the termites in the timber when you’re ready to stop eating yourself alive. you will see there is no pestilence or disease in the world that must not first be healed in you. the call is always coming from inside.

how can any of this be good, you might ask? because when you clean it, you can claim it. it can belong to you. and the more you can belong to yourself, the less often you’ll find yourself at the street corner, giving it away for free. trying to trade your silver dollar for 15 cents—just to feed the meter.