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to be rescued.

do you wish to be rescued? we all do, but sometimes the desire gets extra loud, extra distracting and uncomfortable. pushing its way to the front of your mind, to the center of your awareness. you can hear the words clearly and distinctly. but what’s important is not the content of the wish. it’s not the who/what. no. it’s finding the part of you that’s signaling to “save our ship.” you gotta find her and bring her home.

she’ll keep yelling out for what she wants and it will hurt. follow the pain. follow the sound of her sobbing; her tantrum, the hollering, the meltdown. know that it’s not about delivering what this younger part of you is crying out for. she doesn’t know what she wants. she is calling out for what she thinks she wants. but that’s not it.

she just wants you. you are the rescue. it’s time. you’re ready. keep walking and you’ll find her. don’t stop for a drink. set aside what you were doing. don’t distract yourself rescuing someone else or solving other people’s problems. don’t cover your ears. she won’t cry herself to sleep this time.

just find her, find the wound, wash it out, stop the bleeding. hold her and understand her until she stops crying.