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it will come.

the day you realize absolutely nothing is within your control. that you are at the complete mercy of God. the day it finally and fully lands that the divine has a path for you. you’ll know it as you walk it, not a moment in advance. and it could be leading nowhere. how would you know? you’ll just have to believe in your own pot of gold. that it’s in you to be revealed by you.

and here’s the thing. people assume the day that brings you to your knees would be one of great loss, pain, suffering or tragedy. it might be. but it might have also been the loveliest, lightest, most unexpected day. where all you had to do was be you. to be instead of do. for once. no role but your own. and this will kill the ego faster than anything.

because for many of us, complete light and mercy will feel even sharper than what has for decades ached for relief, fulfillment, rest or release. because at least there was always something you could do about “what was wrong.” a problem is always thirsting for a solution. and even if it’s not you that solves it, there’s plenty to distract ourselves in the meantime. so much numbing and running and strategizing to fill the mind. lots of gossip and analysis.

but your own goodness? where all you have to do is receive it and believe it? that crumples the ego in a way you won’t expect. and that’s the day everything changes. it creates a wormhole to the present moment, to where you always were; it’s just that you can perceive its true texture now.