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the second half.

for the first part of your life, you may find yourself attaching to everyone and everything, claimed by and connected to no one. in the next half, you would detach from everything, with a deepened connection to everyone.

you might have spent the first part of your life ruled by the rules, and the second half deciding your own. or perhaps this time, it was to reclaim childhood. how do you do that? you have a terrible one so that you can give yourself an adulthood that has everything you need and nothing you don’t want. that could be enough and it could be everything: to give yourself a small, safe and stable life lived just for you. that could be the entire mission. who are we to judge?

if a person wanted to understand parenthood, they might have had absent ones, only to find themselves failing at the same task. how else would we learn the gravity of such a calling, had we not chosen to be humbled twice, by both perspectives? that’s probably what it might take for a person to enter their next life in complete awe of the undertaking, committed, ready and willing to give anything and everything for it.

or maybe, you came just to learn it was safe to be yourself; which is why you started out with people who only wanted you if you were performing, which you did, until the mask grew tiresome. one day, you looked into the mirror, and said it to yourself, “i’ll no longer hide what God made. who am i to judge? who is anyone to judge? i am me. this is what God made. i let me be me.” now, these halves are demarcated in private, though the energetic shift is palpable. you’ll start to feel like it’s finally your time, your turn. that’s because it is.